Bankruptcy Announcement

I am currently in a situation of trial... I hear people praising what they consider my "patience" and "steadfastness"... I will not hide from you that I fear this... I fear that I may become pleased with myself, so may Allah not entrust me to myself... From here, I, Iyad Qanibi, declare my complete bankruptcy from all patience, from all steadfastness, and from all strength that emanates from the depths of my soul. And I declare that the patience and strength I have is purely a favor from Allah the Almighty, and that if He entrusts me to myself and my shortcomings and sins, you will find in me nothing but ruin, spots, and a barren desert. So do not praise the weak servant, but know that the patience of those who are patient and the steadfastness of those who are steadfast is nothing but manifestations of Allah's mercy and wisdom in the upbringing of His servants and His kindness in not burdening them with trials they cannot bear. And by Allah, I know myself that if Allah tests me with what He tests others who are stronger and have greater faith, then leaves me to myself, my weakness and emptiness without the company of my Lord will be revealed. But, praise be to You, my Lord, for what You have shown me of Your kindness, generosity, and favor in trials. And let no one think that I say this "out of humility," but rather as a means of maintaining the blessing of my Lord who says: (And when your Lord proclaimed, 'If you are grateful, I will surely increase you'), and out of fear of the loss of this blessing. All praise is due to Allah who has pleased us as befits His glory and great authority. Our Lord, pour upon us patience... O Ever-Living, O Self-Subsisting, by Your mercy I seek help... Rectify all my affairs and do not entrust me to myself for the blink of an eye. Bankruptcy Announcement Iyad Qanibi I am currently in a situation of trial... I hear people praising what they consider my "patience" and "steadfastness"... And I will not hide from you that I fear this... I fear that I may become pleased with myself, so may Allah not entrust me to myself... From here, I, Iyad Qanibi, declare my complete bankruptcy from all patience, from all steadfastness, and from all strength that emanates from the depths of my soul. And I declare that the patience and strength I have is purely a favor from Allah the Almighty, and that if He entrusts me to myself and my shortcomings and sins, you will find in me nothing but ruin, spots, and a barren desert. So do not praise the weak servant, but know that the patience of those who are patient and the steadfastness of those who are steadfast is nothing but manifestations of Allah's mercy and wisdom in the upbringing of His servants and His kindness in not burdening them with trials they cannot bear. And by Allah, I know myself that if Allah tests me with what He tests others who are stronger and have greater faith, then leaves me to myself, my weakness and emptiness without the company of my Lord will be revealed. But, praise be to You, my Lord, for what You have shown me of Your kindness, generosity, and favor in trials. And let no one think that I say this "out of humility," but rather as a means of maintaining the blessing of my Lord who says: (And when your Lord proclaimed, 'If you are grateful, I will surely increase you'), and out of fear of the loss of this blessing. All praise is due to Allah who has pleased us as befits His glory and great authority. Our Lord, pour upon us patience... O Ever-Living, O Self-Subsisting, by Your mercy I seek help... Rectify all my affairs and do not entrust me to myself for the blink of an eye.